It’s hard! It’s hard trusting your parent when you’re growing up to know what’s best for you. Maybe not so much in that manner, not like you’re thinking as a kid, “I hope they’re making the right decisions.” You’re just thinking, “this is what I want, why won’t my parent let me have it?!” Or, “I don’t want to do it that way, I want to do it MY way.” Right? We all had these moments growing up. It’s just part of growing up. It happened to everyone, we thought we knew better in all of our kid wisdom… And we were so wrong, weren’t we? Now that we’re adults, we know and understand that many of those decisions were made in OUR best interest or for OUR good. Now, little differences between our natural parents and our SUPERNATURAL Father, is our Heavenly Father, is always looking out for us, and He’s always the perfect parent.
So, in this, we are the children. In all of our kid wisdom, we are charging ahead, trying to do it our way, and thinking we know what’s best, but the Father has a better plan in mind. I think part of this kid wisdom we retain is because we’re still maturing as Christians. And, as we grow, it becomes easier to trust God and know that He’s in control, and He’s doing what’s best for us. Same thing in the natural, as we grow, we trust our parent’s decisions more and more. We gain the understanding that maybe we don’t know all the answers and that our parents have a better understanding of the world, and maybe they know what’s best. I believe, that as we strengthen our relationship with God, it becomes a little easier all the time to know that He’s got it figured out and we just need to trust Him.
Let me share some of my life experience here to show you what I mean. When I first started out as a “baby” Christian (as an adult – we’re not counting all the years that I was saved and “going through the motions”). I was going to church, and really starting to get this connection with God, and feeling the Holy Spirit stirring in me. I made the decision that we were going to move to Arkansas. We started selling/gifting pretty much all our stuff, we notified our family in Arkansas, we started saying good-bye to all our friends and family here, I sold our mobile home. We are hitting the road Jack! And, at one point, someone asked me, “Have you asked God what He thinks about all of this?” And, in the moment they said that, I knew, God said No. I knew it, but I never straight out asked God, it was just as soon as they said that, everything in my body screamed, “NO”. But, as children do, if you don’t ask, they can’t tell you “No”, Right? So, I didn’t, I never asked, I just barreled ahead, this is what we’re doing. And, two weeks before we were to leave on a “scouting” vacation to start putting some more stuff together, I got the job offer of a lifetime. Haha, I mean, the one thing God knew better than anyone, let’s put this in front of her. And, for 3 days, I struggled. But, I was only struggling with myself, I knew that this was the path, not Arkansas. And, I took the job, and we had to re-build everything right where we were. Now, looking back, I know that this is what God wanted. Just a few years later, my dad would pass suddenly, and I would’ve regretted my decision to move away SO MUCH! I’m so grateful God saved me from me. I wouldn’t have the amazing job I have now. I wouldn’t have my ladies’ Bible study group. I wouldn’t have so many things, I wouldn’t be a member of the church I am now, I could go on and on. Hindsight is 20/20. Thank God, He saves us from us.
Fast forward, a few years later, and we’re living in our rental. I have grown much deeper in my Faith, and I’m spending a lot of time in prayer and reading my Bible, sharing time with God, and just burning for our time together. And, the landlord knocks on our door one morning (in the midst of a million other things happening) and says, he’s going to demolish the house in 45 days. We need to move. I don’t even know where to begin, but I didn’t start looking for places to live right away (for some reason?). I talked to a few people, and our sister-in-law had a house lined up to move into October 1st, I didn’t even check anything else, we just accepted. Come to find out, after we have moved in 75% of our stuff, this landlord is Crazy (like certifiable), and we’re going to have to move again (or pay 3x the rent….), and low and behold, the day we start looking for another new place, this little house pops up (just hours before), that is “perfect”. Not really what we love, but better than anything else that you can find mid-semester in a college town. We take it. And the rest, is another story. But, see how all of that, worked together? I’m just following God’s lead, everything was syncing together like a giant puzzle, every time it seemed like one piece fell into place, another one was ready. We couldn’t have ended up where we are without it.
One of the really big moments that happened in the midst of all of this, was a moment I had with my son. We hadn’t quite moved out of House A (the one that was going to get demolished), and my son is outside on his skateboard, and I came out to watch him from the porch. I called him over, and I said, “How are you doing buddy?” He says, “I’m fine.” I said, “Really? Wow. I mean, we all have a lot of stuff going on right now. I’m not fine.” He kinda looks at me. And, sits down next to me on the step, and I said, “You know. It’s OK to not be OK. I mean, we have A LOT of stuff going on right now, and to be honest, I don’t know what’s going to happen next.” And, in this moment, that little kid and I just broke. And cried. And, I said to him, “You know, no one in that house is OK right now. There are a lot of things happening, and moving is a big deal, and I don’t know where we’re going to go or what’s going to happen next, but you know what I do know? I know that God’s got this, and that it’s all going to be OK eventually. That we just have to trust Him.” Then, we prayed for a little while, and we picked ourselves back up, and went about life. And, eventually, everything was ok. But, I mean, just a few short years of growth, and I’m a totally different person. I go from not wanting to talk to God about my decisions, to not even really making decisions, just going with the apparent flow that is happening. And, showing my son, that I’m just trusting God for these things. He takes care of the sparrow, why not me? There are so many moments in my life this recent years, where I just, did my best, prayed it was blessed, and trusted God for the rest. And He does not disappoint. He always shows up. #Godshowedup. Every time. Because He doesn’t change. When you trust Him. He shows up.
Father, I pray today, that all those reading this, receive peace. Receive the overwhelming peace of the Messiah. Of the God whose peace surpasses all understanding. We do not know what’s best for us Father, but you do. I pray that you share your ethereal, overwhelming, overflowing peace with all my readers today, and every day. I pray that you air drop peace into their souls. That you steady their lives from within. That you resonate within them Father. That you quiet the world around them and share your ever-loving peace with them, in them, and that it may spread from the inside out. You, Father, take care of the sparrows, and you will take care of us. All the time. May we lean in to You Father. And you shelter us from the storm. This storm and all the storms to come. Thank You for all that you do Father, and all that you will do. May we always trust that You will show up, because You always do. IN JESUS” NAME!! AMEN!!
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