I know, the plan was to post once a week, and it still is the plan, mostly. But yesterday morning, when I woke up to this brand new 2019, this was the verse from my Bible app, to start my year. Which, is a great scripture, and one to remember for many occasions, but it vividly reminded me of when God really showed up the first time, after I started going back to church. Little background leading up to this story. I had recently gotten married and graduated from online college, I had a career that I was very proud of, and I had recently accepted a brand new role in a small company in a rural town from where I live. I thought, everything was going great. My new job paid bank, we were getting ready to sign on a house, we were already making great and glorious remodeling plans, it was going to be A-MAZ-ING!!! And we were thrilled! And quite literally, the Friday before we’re going to sign papers for the house, to move, and I get pulled into the CEO’s office, where the Corporate manager proceeds to eat me and the Plant Manager alive in front of the CEO. And, ends the session, informing us that in a month, one of us (the Plant Manager or myself) will no longer be here…. WOW. Now, I personally, have never even been written up at work. I haven’t even had a hard “talking-to” in years, let alone this degree of … whatever that was. I am, for the first time in my life, rendered speechless. As I leave the meeting, and go to my desk to gather my things, the Plant Manager pulls me aside and says he’s pretty sure it’s a ploy to get rid of him (he’s older, he costs the money a lot in insurance for meds, etc.) I just look at him, and say, “Don’t worry about it. I’m leaving before the time is up. I can find another job, you need the insurance. Joke’s on them.” And that was it. My career just blew up in my face. I left a job that I had been at for 5 years for this, and it just blew up. The house – pointless. All of it. I go home to break the news to my husband. Fast forward a little, I get a job as an entry level factory worker at a company my dad has been at forever (and loves, and has been trying to get me to come to.) Fast forward again, I try to move up and it once again blows back on me. I just cannot win.
Feeling wholly and completely defeated, I make a plan. We’re going to sell our mobile home and move South. Yep. Obviously, life isn’t working out here, it’s time to move on. So, we start making plans. I fix up a few more things and put the house on the market, I make contact with some of my husband’s family, we start looking at the job market. Yep, this is what we’re doing. And, at one point, I’m discussing all this with my brother, and he asks me, if I’ve asked God about this…. Um, no. I haven’t. And, now, I can already sense it, as soon as he said it, God isn’t having this business. But, I went totally childish, well, if I don’t ask – he can’t tell me “No” and I won’t be defying him… Right? Plan moves forward. We are now getting ready to go on “vacation” for a few days to visit my husband’s family, where we’re going to look at places to live, and jobs, and get ready to move! Someone is buying our house at the end of the month. We’re going to stay in South Dakota through the summer, help my folks out on the farm, and then hit the road. We’re saying good-bye to our friends, telling everyone I know that I don’t have much time left, we’re heading south, going to scout it out soon….. And God showed up. 5 days before we are due to leave for “vacation”, this manager from a dept I had been part-timing in pulls me aside, and says he needs my help today. – Ok. The next day, he tells me again, I need your help in my dept. – Ok. Finally, the 3rd day, he again needs my help. – Now, I have noticed that someone in the dept is missing these days, but surely there are other more capable people to help here. And, so I challenge him. “What are you doing? Where’s this other person? Are they sick? What’s going on?” And he looks at me and says, “Let me be honest. She’s transferred departments, and I want you to take this job. I think you would be a good fit. Take some time, think it over, let me know.” EXCUSE ME?!?! I literally leave to go job and house hunting in 2 days!!! But, people, this is a dream job. This is a perfect for me job. This is a “I don’t think I could apply for it and get it job.” – Now, I will say that part of my plan to move south is because this company is so massive with so many seasoned employees, I thought that my chances of advancement were slim to none. So, I go home and tell my husband. And, in his deep love for me, he says, “Well, you decide what you want and let me know. I go where you go.” God showed up. He was there the whole time, but come on, I knew. I knew, somehow, as soon as my brother posed it, that this wasn’t what God had planned, and that some how, some way, this plan wasn’t happening, but I was barreling forward like it was. I sold my house, I got rid of almost all my stuff, I tuned-up my resume, and God threw my a curve-ball. But, everything that has happened since then has been an absolute blessing. My job is great, my boss is great, I have a solid Christian family, I’ve found a growing, thriving Christian church that encourages the fire in me, I’ve started a bible study. I got to spend my dad’s last years with him. I was never supposed to leave. God knew exactly what was up, and he tried to tell me, but I just didn’t want to listen. And what if I hadn’t? What if I had doubled-down? What would’ve happened then? I cannot imagine, nor do I want to. I wouldn’t take it back for the world. ❤ I hope this encourages you, when sometimes it feels like you know what you’re doing, maybe there’s a still small voice that says, “maybe not” or “yes, this is the right path.” Listen. Listen to it. Bend to his will, let him mold you, let him make the arrangements, let him guide you to where you’re going, it’s always better than what you think you know anyway. 😉